Mark 5:34. Healed 2025

It's been a slog since my last post. As I think I said before, when I hit the 100th day since transplant, I think I expected to feel better. The fatigue and exhaustion, body aches, sore muscles, and incredibly stiff joints just plagued me. I'd wake up every day and not want to get out of bed. 

To celebrate the 100 days and my finally going home, we went out to dinners with our kids and grandkids. It didn't end up all together because of a stomach bug but we had 2 nice dinners out. It was also Mother's Day weekend. 

The little ones made art projects (I am happily running out of wall space). I love a little heart shaped jewelry box and necklace that remind me of our sweet love. And...I have a new prized possession that will always remind me of this special time and how wonderful my kids are. 

They got me a very large bell that Mason has mounted out on our patio. It looks like the bells cancer patients ring when they have completed chemotherapy in the infusion center. Our kids weren't there when the nurses wheeled me out my last day in the hospital, lined the halls, and clapped me to the bell. That was such a joyful moment - and I rang it loud to hopefully encourage any patients in earshot. 

The kids had the bell inscribed with: 

                Mark 5:34

               Healed 2025

I find myself mediating on this verse and the words "Healed 2025." I think about all I've learned about "healing cancer" instead of fighting cancer. I'm so grateful that, for the first time in 8 years, I feel healed of the lymphoma and am just recovering from the treatments (transplant) now. Although the specialists want to follow me closely the first 1 - 2 years because of the risk of relapse, I am not worried about that at all and plan to have the port removed in the next couple months, for example. I just don't need it anymore. I think about how much work I have done, deciding if I can face whatever comes including the challenges of old age and such... when for so long I thought I wouldn't be here. 

The verse is about the woman who had bled for 12 years, suffering so greatly. Mark 5:34 reads, 4 He (Jesus) said to her, "Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."

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