When the rubber meets the road

I was reminded of this favorite verse this week when I looked for a brick I bought that was engraved and placed on campus as part of a fundraiser. I completely forgot what I had put on it. I wrote my name, Romans 5:4, With Love. It has been important to me personally, and has also been the verse I have used to lead me as an educator. To paraphrase, it says that perseverance is what creates character in us and that character is what gives us hope. (Later it goes on to assert that the resulting hope in God does not disappoint). As a person who has struggled with depression much of my life, this verse has been an important glimpse into how God sees the growth of hope - it comes from perseverance and character. I don't often share with students that it is a Bible verse, but I have the discussion with them often when they feel down; that they will see the light as they keep trying and don't give up. They will continue to develop into the person they want to be. It's infallible...

It's been awhile. I've been trying hard to just stay the course, in faith, giving up doubting my path for lent. It has been a challenge but it helps to think, "Just for now, I have promised not to worry or let my mind go back and forth with all the "ya, but's" that keep me from real peace." Still taking all the basic supplements 3x/ day, cannabis suppositories 2 x/day, Chinese herbs 4x/day, changed waters and colloidal silver 4x/day, coffee enemas on Sundays now because I just can't do them during the week with work, epson salt baths a couple times a week. I continue on the Gallium Maltolate; I've committed for 2 months and I'm about 3 weeks in. I started 3 new substances about 10 days ago that are made from sea vegetables that are supposed to work on the heavy electron load in cancer cells. I was very much hoping that these new things would turn around a troubling and painful swelling and stiffness that has taken over my hands and pr...