When the rubber meets the road

Hey there. Thanks for keeping up and the prayers. This is a long road and I'm so grateful to be on it with so much support. I've felt like the last entry was quite whiny. I know it's okay to have good days and bad days. Yesterday was a great day - spent with two of our kids and feeling good. Today was back to walking through mud and having trouble feeling positive about it all. I just don't know where I'm at. I know my body is struggling to conquer the Epstein Barr Virus and who knows what else, besides T Cell Lymphoma. When I splurge at all, sharing bites of someone's dessert or eating a soup with heavy cream in it, for example, my joints swell and I feel so achy and awful the next day. It's scary. No gluten, dairy, sugar, tomatoes, alcohol, pork, vinegar. Cutting down to no more than 1 serving of animal protein (including eggs) per day. Since it appears I'm having autoimmune symptoms, I'm starting the book, The Autoimmune Solution, that has bee...

I should feel grateful right now. I have a third confirmation that the Epstein Barr Virus is most likely the root of the cause of my cancer and a practitioner I saw today feels we can knock it out in something like the next 30 days. It is comforting to hear him say how rampant it is in my body; it helps me feel like I'm not crazy or lazy or just a wimp. He only added 3 tinctures, a liquid herbal supplement, and colloidal silver 4 times a day to my regimen. I don't feel good today, though. And I am overwhelmed as I try to figure out how to add even more to what I am doing now. Of course, we are hoping that taking care of the EBV will put my body in the position to take care of the lymphoma. My body made it; my body can heal it. I have fought the idea that taking care of myself is really all I can do right ow but this might just be the straw that breaks this camel's back. In other words, I think I need to just stay home to stay on track and stop thinking I can do anything...

Hi There. It has be a really long time since I posted anything. It is just so difficult to sum this process up. I feel like I am falling backward down a very long tube and God is asking me to trust him and relax. As I reach for anything to give me peace, besides trusting Him, I wobble. I might grab for a treatment option or a particular "expert" but God just keeps saying for me to stop and to relax, lay back and trust. In the meantime, I try to be faithful to what I need to be doing to take stress off my body and give it what it needs to heal itself, as I've detailed before. About a month ago, I felt the concern and dread I had about the lymphoma and all the ominous details about it just lift from me. I felt really good physically and, although lymph nodes continue to grow and shrink in unpredictable ways, I just am not scared. We had a prayer night a month ago at my church and I remember feeling at tremendous peace and even seeing glimpses of gratitude that I have ...