Starting a new 30 day focused push...

I should feel grateful right now. I have a third confirmation that the Epstein Barr Virus is most likely the root of the cause of my cancer and a practitioner I saw today feels we can knock it out in something like the next 30 days. It is comforting to hear him say how rampant it is in my body; it helps me feel like I'm not crazy or lazy or just a wimp. He only added 3 tinctures, a liquid herbal supplement, and colloidal silver 4 times a day to my regimen. I don't feel good today, though. And I am overwhelmed as I try to figure out how to add even more to what I am doing now.

Of course, we are hoping that taking care of the EBV will put my body in the position to take care of the lymphoma. My body made it; my body can heal it.

I have fought the idea that taking care of myself is really all I can do right ow but this might just be the straw that breaks this camel's back. In other words, I think I need to just stay home to stay on track and stop thinking I can do anything else. I had been hoping to return to work Nov. 5. My being off work has caused more work and pressure for others; it is college application season and professional conference travel season too, on top of the normal stuff I do. Being home is costing us about $5500/month from my paycheck, it is affecting my retirement pay long term, and I don't have any sick time left when I go back until August when it resets. The cost of all the treatments and doctors and such is staggering. Ugh.

I should be thankful to have such hope of healing when there are so many people I know that are so much sicker than I with no end in sight. But, today, I am sore and feel so tired and have the sensation that I am pushing my muscles to move like I am walking through mud. I'm in a horrible mood and I am having trouble feeling anything but blah.

A little side note: The only person I can find anywhere that has kicked a T-cell lymphoma without the not-so-effective-anyhow conventional treatments is a doctor in Arizona who did a lot of what I do (I should say I do a lot of what he did) but he also used a ST8 machine or Light Beam Generator several hours daily. I have been so emotional whenever I think about buying one of these machines; the cheapest I can find is about $14,000. No one leases or rents them as far as I can find. The center uses them at $40 for 30 minutes which I don't think does enough (30 minutes a few times a week). So...at a new Bible Study yesterday it dawned on me - if God wants me to use that machine, He will provide it somehow. I am praying for that and I trust Him for it. Otherwise, I'm going to forget about it.

Well - it feels like a new day - or a new restart. I need to do a good 30 day push before reevaluating again with new testing of the circulating tumor cells and hoping that we can knock out this virus by Low carb and lots and lots of vegetable with some fruit diet, moderate healthy fats
Tons of water and lemon water
Thyroid stuff on empty stomach when I wake up
Detox strategies morning and night (saunas, salt baths, enemas)
Exercise every day, preferably several times a day
Hoxsey tonic 4 times a day with food
Pancreatic enzymes twice a day on an empty stomach
Various Supplements 4 times a day with food
Anti-cancer chinese herbs 3 times a day with food (may switch to a tea 4 times a day)
Mushroom capsules twice a day
Now adding 3 tinctures, horrible tasting herbal liquid, and liquid silver 4 times a day
Orosal twice daily
Alk-align supplement and React probiotic 3 times daily
Essential Oils in diffuser, in lotions, on feet at night, and incorporated whenever possible
Cut down on exposure to toxins and potentially dangerous EMR
Doing everything I can to learn what I need to learn from this, process whatever emotions I may have suppressed through the years, and stay close to God moment by moment. Forgive forgive forgive and be grateful, even when I don't feel like it.

Did I forget anything? - Oh ya, remember how fortunate I am to have the support of so many people like my hubby, kids, family, friends ... you. And that I am able to be home; although the financial thing is hard - it is still possible. God has always provided and he always will. Take good care!