Coming up to 6 months. Still looking for a track.
Hey there. Thanks for keeping up and the prayers. This is a long road and I'm so grateful to be on it with so much support.
I've felt like the last entry was quite whiny. I know it's okay to have good days and bad days. Yesterday was a great day - spent with two of our kids and feeling good. Today was back to walking through mud and having trouble feeling positive about it all.
I just don't know where I'm at. I know my body is struggling to conquer the Epstein Barr Virus and who knows what else, besides T Cell Lymphoma. When I splurge at all, sharing bites of someone's dessert or eating a soup with heavy cream in it, for example, my joints swell and I feel so achy and awful the next day. It's scary. No gluten, dairy, sugar, tomatoes, alcohol, pork, vinegar. Cutting down to no more than 1 serving of animal protein (including eggs) per day. Since it appears I'm having autoimmune symptoms, I'm starting the book, The Autoimmune Solution, that has been recommended to me by several other patients.
I am at rest, however, about leaving one big decision completely up to God. There is a machine that has helped at least 1 other person with a similar cancer to my own beat it (T-cell Lymphomas are very rare). It costs another $14,000. Our savings are depleted and I am still taking a huge financial hit being off work. If I need a ST8 machine, it is up to God himself. If He wants me to have it, He will provide it somehow. Case closed.
Next month will mark 6 months of following just about any door that has opened at the cost of about $70,000; what I really want is a "track" to settle into. I don't have it yet. If what I've been doing is working and my Circulating Tumor Cell count is down, I guess I need to continue on with what I've been doing. I desperately want to simplify it though.
Possible future tweaks:
1) Switching to the supplements and extreme juicing and vegan eating espoused by Chris Work at www.chrisbeatcancer.com - who has tons of video testimonials of people who have beat cancer this way. I also love that he is not making a fortune off my recovery. I am terrified to try to give up meat, however.
2) 1 gram of cannabis with a mix of THC and CBD daily. The only way I can figure out to do this without being zoned out all the time is homemade suppositories 3 times per day. Oh joy.
We will see.
Hope all is well with you and yours! Again, thanks for hanging in there with me. XOXO
I've felt like the last entry was quite whiny. I know it's okay to have good days and bad days. Yesterday was a great day - spent with two of our kids and feeling good. Today was back to walking through mud and having trouble feeling positive about it all.
I just don't know where I'm at. I know my body is struggling to conquer the Epstein Barr Virus and who knows what else, besides T Cell Lymphoma. When I splurge at all, sharing bites of someone's dessert or eating a soup with heavy cream in it, for example, my joints swell and I feel so achy and awful the next day. It's scary. No gluten, dairy, sugar, tomatoes, alcohol, pork, vinegar. Cutting down to no more than 1 serving of animal protein (including eggs) per day. Since it appears I'm having autoimmune symptoms, I'm starting the book, The Autoimmune Solution, that has been recommended to me by several other patients.
I am at rest, however, about leaving one big decision completely up to God. There is a machine that has helped at least 1 other person with a similar cancer to my own beat it (T-cell Lymphomas are very rare). It costs another $14,000. Our savings are depleted and I am still taking a huge financial hit being off work. If I need a ST8 machine, it is up to God himself. If He wants me to have it, He will provide it somehow. Case closed.
Next month will mark 6 months of following just about any door that has opened at the cost of about $70,000; what I really want is a "track" to settle into. I don't have it yet. If what I've been doing is working and my Circulating Tumor Cell count is down, I guess I need to continue on with what I've been doing. I desperately want to simplify it though.
Possible future tweaks:
1) Switching to the supplements and extreme juicing and vegan eating espoused by Chris Work at www.chrisbeatcancer.com - who has tons of video testimonials of people who have beat cancer this way. I also love that he is not making a fortune off my recovery. I am terrified to try to give up meat, however.
2) 1 gram of cannabis with a mix of THC and CBD daily. The only way I can figure out to do this without being zoned out all the time is homemade suppositories 3 times per day. Oh joy.
We will see.
Hope all is well with you and yours! Again, thanks for hanging in there with me. XOXO
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