Still Throwing Spaghetti at the Wall
One of the most uncomfortable feelings I have about this health journey is the image I have of throwing spaghetti at the wall as a way of describing what I have done to deal with what's going on in my body. I value the scientific method but have been completely unable to apply it to this situation. As I've shared here many times, I burned out of it all after the first couple years and have become quite lazy. I know how blessed I am that this disease has been so stable. I don't really expect to go into remission. That is sad to admit because I know how important our beliefs are in our health. But it's the truth. So I have been living in a bit of a limbo state. I still have this cancer that the doctors are terrified to just leave alone but they still don't have a treatment that really works most of the time. And the treatment can cause new problems that very often take the lives of patients. I talk about having faith that God is in control of it all. I do have that f...