Back at True North Heath - Water Fasting
Hi there,
I hope you're having a wondering Sunday. I am listening to this awesome Podcast called BEMA Discipleship that helps people learn to think Hebrew in terms of scripture. It's so interesting; I've always been interested in the Jewish history and culture. I never knew the importance or emphasis on the Sabbath, really. I want to find a way to really honor it as "as space for just God and me."
When I was at True North before, Kiyomi and I had put down a deposit to come back again this week for another 21 day fast with about 10 additional days of refeeding. When I started Belinostat, I thought I couldn't leave for that long so I just wrote it off and another friend was thinking about taking my space. Recently Kiyomi and her hubby met Andy and I for a little socially distanced camping/quadding trip and she asked me if I was going. The friend backed out and it dawned on me that I actually could. I can work remotely from there, I don't have treatment to worry about, and there really wasn't a big reason for me not to go (except I miss my family so much!).
So...here I am again. To be perfectly honest, I have been sort of food obsessed since I left here in January and have gained a lot of weight. It is also the Prednisone I have been taking and the fact that I started eating gluten and even dairy as my diet just fell apart after the 19 days of fasting and 10 days of refeeding with the all vegan no SOS (sugar, oil, salt) diet. I suspect I am having trouble with night shades and other things (like wine) that could be contributing to the inflammation. It felt like everything made me react when I left True North so I just gave up. In hindsight, I started eating the wrong stuff for me and then I started down the medication road, hoping it would take care of it and I could just do what I want.
As I've shared before, I don't want to go down the conventional road that feels more like a river that can sweep you downstream pretty quickly. Medications with side effects and more medications to deal with side effects, radiation from numerous scans, and just the whole experience of sitting in an IV chair feeling lousy and being treated like a sick person can have a big effect.
Anyhow, I'm here with a very different goal this time. I need to find my way to be healthy long term - not a way to fast for the magical 21 days that has turned other people's lymphoma around or to prove anything to myself or anyone else.
On the way up here (I drove from the Santa Barbara area today) I also listed to Corrie Ten Boom on YouTube. She talked about intercessory prayer. She makes me want to be more about God's business that my own. I find myself less and less worried about what happens with me, knowing I am in the hands of my benevolent maker who's wildly in love with me. I want to do my part, however, to get well. Life is a gift and is worth the effort. I plan to work hard to get caught up at work but also to use the time to be in my Bible, the source of her (our) amazing strength and focus, and to be in prayer - a lot. Kiyomi will also be working long hours from here so I don't know if we will be doing any creative blogs. Who knows, we talked about doing them once a week or so.
So...here we go. I ate their vegan meal (salad and fruit) tonight. I meet with the doctor tomorrow to lay out a plan. I don't look forward to the fasting at all but know I need to be here.
God bless and keep you and yours! xoxo
I hope you're having a wondering Sunday. I am listening to this awesome Podcast called BEMA Discipleship that helps people learn to think Hebrew in terms of scripture. It's so interesting; I've always been interested in the Jewish history and culture. I never knew the importance or emphasis on the Sabbath, really. I want to find a way to really honor it as "as space for just God and me."
When I was at True North before, Kiyomi and I had put down a deposit to come back again this week for another 21 day fast with about 10 additional days of refeeding. When I started Belinostat, I thought I couldn't leave for that long so I just wrote it off and another friend was thinking about taking my space. Recently Kiyomi and her hubby met Andy and I for a little socially distanced camping/quadding trip and she asked me if I was going. The friend backed out and it dawned on me that I actually could. I can work remotely from there, I don't have treatment to worry about, and there really wasn't a big reason for me not to go (except I miss my family so much!).
So...here I am again. To be perfectly honest, I have been sort of food obsessed since I left here in January and have gained a lot of weight. It is also the Prednisone I have been taking and the fact that I started eating gluten and even dairy as my diet just fell apart after the 19 days of fasting and 10 days of refeeding with the all vegan no SOS (sugar, oil, salt) diet. I suspect I am having trouble with night shades and other things (like wine) that could be contributing to the inflammation. It felt like everything made me react when I left True North so I just gave up. In hindsight, I started eating the wrong stuff for me and then I started down the medication road, hoping it would take care of it and I could just do what I want.
As I've shared before, I don't want to go down the conventional road that feels more like a river that can sweep you downstream pretty quickly. Medications with side effects and more medications to deal with side effects, radiation from numerous scans, and just the whole experience of sitting in an IV chair feeling lousy and being treated like a sick person can have a big effect.
Anyhow, I'm here with a very different goal this time. I need to find my way to be healthy long term - not a way to fast for the magical 21 days that has turned other people's lymphoma around or to prove anything to myself or anyone else.
On the way up here (I drove from the Santa Barbara area today) I also listed to Corrie Ten Boom on YouTube. She talked about intercessory prayer. She makes me want to be more about God's business that my own. I find myself less and less worried about what happens with me, knowing I am in the hands of my benevolent maker who's wildly in love with me. I want to do my part, however, to get well. Life is a gift and is worth the effort. I plan to work hard to get caught up at work but also to use the time to be in my Bible, the source of her (our) amazing strength and focus, and to be in prayer - a lot. Kiyomi will also be working long hours from here so I don't know if we will be doing any creative blogs. Who knows, we talked about doing them once a week or so.
So...here we go. I ate their vegan meal (salad and fruit) tonight. I meet with the doctor tomorrow to lay out a plan. I don't look forward to the fasting at all but know I need to be here.
God bless and keep you and yours! xoxo
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