True North Day 7

True North

Day 7

Hi all,

I am very aware that prayers are getting me through this (THANK YOU SO MUCH!) so I feel silly admitting that tonight is a tough one. I am doubting I can do this for another 15 days. We are all in the same boat here, albeit at different stages. So I see evidence that people can do a very long term fast. And I have heard references to huge results. I just feel lousy, like the flu, when you are achy all over and grumpy and just want to come out of your skin.

I will finish the blog, write in my journal, and just try to go to sleep. I've been waking up at 4:30 am or so, so I hope going to bed early won't mess me up. We will see.

When you come here, you stop all supplements and meds as possible. (So I don't have melatonin or anything that could help me sleep). They even cut my thyroid meds in 1/2. They say that when you are fasting you metabolize meds more thoroughly (or something like that) so you don't need nearly as much.

I didn't mention on the video that I went to a mind/body lecture today by one of the doctors. Essentially the idea he presented is to 1) acknowledge that we don't really know what the subconscious is but we know it exists and controls much of our lives. 2) acknowledge that we don't know where it is. 3) acknowledge that we don't know how to clear stuff from it or really heal it. Then we say thank you and I love you to anything that comes up and even to our subconscious. Sounds like Ho'oponopono, which I have used.
He wasn't the best teacher. I've read books on the subject. But it was a good reminder for me to say thank you and I love you when my mind is going to negative places, like judgement of others. It helped me all afternoon. The videos we are posting on the video are from this talk.

Just got back from a great meditation class where I didn't feel uncomfortable as a Christian, even once. There is so much science to it all, but non-believers don't understand when they cross the line and essentially introduce religion into it that contradicts what Jesus and Scripture says. And then they say that they honor all religions. And it is so mainstream that many believers aren't even aware.

Anyhow, I have what feels like a pinch of the nerve between by shoulder blades and I just need to try to sleep - for like a week (-;  By the way, we made the video a few hours ago so I really was better then.

Night night. Hugs.