True North Day 10

True North 
Day 10


Hi All. 

I so hope your day was a nice one. I can't say this is as hard as I imagined it could be, but it is hard -especially in the evenings when I tend to feel the most discomfort from my throat to my gut. It's not nausea but I guess I would call it malaise. I find myself wondering what the fast was like for Jesus in the desert-cold and certainly miserable. Today I was a little emotional. As the thought of fat I've had on my body for all my life (I honestly don't think I've been under 125 lbs since middle school), I know that heavy medals and toxins are being released. Today I had the sense that some old memories and, dare I say, traumas might be coming to the surface too. Just a thought and possible journal topics. 

Anyhow, love to all! Night night. xoxo


Comments

  1. Drewbud77December 17, 2019 at 8:39 PM

    OK, the glasses may as well be sexy lingerie. NOT! But, if they grog you up for good sleep, who cares what they look like right!? Glad the chiro was able to relieve your discomfort Bear. All my love!

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    1. Drewbud77December 17, 2019 at 8:41 PM

      Oh, I just started using Chrome and the comments publish straight forward. Couldn't figure Safari out, something about third party cookies not enabling comments to post.

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    2. Drewbud77December 17, 2019 at 8:43 PM

      Sending care package tomorrow for Christmas. You can open the cards only!

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  2. Silvia StandkeDecember 18, 2019 at 4:08 PM

    Hello Ladies,

    You are so cute and funny. So glad that you are in good spirits. The glasses do not look bad at all and thank you for the tip. Amazing to hear how the human body reacts and adapts as it goes through drastic changes. Cathie, it is good to hear that sleep is more sound than before...Wow.

    I am sad to hear about the meat because I love meat, but will at least adopt some of the tips you gave us.

    Victor and I are always praying for you. You pop into my mind numerous times a day and these thoughts bounce back up to Jesus. He is watching and listening.

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