When the rubber meets the road

The toughest part of the past 22 months or so has been confusion that has landed me in a somewhat frozen position this last several months. When I first was diagnosed, the oncologists were definite and seemingly confident in their fervent recommendations; they still are. But I knew just a little bit too much to just go along. It's not like I knew enough to know what to do, however. I landed at the Cancer Center for Healing but the lack of congruence in what I saw there, combined with my inability to ignore caution signs greeting me at every juncture, led me to "try" things and spend a ton of money, but I have never felt like I was on track to actually beat this. I have done things for a few months each, things like the Ketogenic diet, Salecinium IVs, Mistletoe and High Dose Vitamin C IV's, Chinese herbs and electrically charged waters, acupuncture, EVOX therapy, EMDR, Recall Healing, treatment by an intuitive chiropractor, tons of supplements. I struggle to find a c...

Howdy. I hope you and yours are well and your Thanksgiving was fantastic. Ours was - we had all our kids and grandkids together for the first time in a year, at it was all I hoped it would be. There is just nothing like being with the complete set. I am going back to work today and just realized that could prompt some to wonder what's going on. Whenever someone asks me how I'm doing, I have the hardest time answering. I wish I were one of those people who could say something very deep and meaningful like, "God is healing me day by day." Things like that do not feel genuine to me, although I am counting on just that. Things are pretty status quo, although I am always keenly aware when a lymph node is swollen and/or I feel like the nodes in my groin are starting to hurt. My diet hasn't been perfect, I sometimes fail to get all the supplements in, I don't do enough saunas and salt baths and exercise. I sometimes experience a fatigue that is debilitating and...