Update 10/5/17
Hi There.
It has be a really long time since I posted anything. It is just so difficult to sum this process up.
I feel like I am falling backward down a very long tube and God is asking me to trust him and relax. As I reach for anything to give me peace, besides trusting Him, I wobble. I might grab for a treatment option or a particular "expert" but God just keeps saying for me to stop and to relax, lay back and trust. In the meantime, I try to be faithful to what I need to be doing to take stress off my body and give it what it needs to heal itself, as I've detailed before.
About a month ago, I felt the concern and dread I had about the lymphoma and all the ominous details about it just lift from me. I felt really good physically and, although lymph nodes continue to grow and shrink in unpredictable ways, I just am not scared. We had a prayer night a month ago at my church and I remember feeling at tremendous peace and even seeing glimpses of gratitude that I have this diagnosis and that God has not healed me yet - because there are things for me to learn before He does.
Since then, however, I have been hit with very achy and swollen joints and painful muscle aches. I feel like I am walking through mud, especially after I exert myself. I'm afraid that the Epstien Barr Virus for which I got a tailored vaccine a couple weeks ago may have made things worse. On the other hand, these symptoms could mean my body is fighting. I blame myself whenever my diet isn't perfect. I will keep plugging and ... we will see.
In the meantime, I am reading about EBV and how to deal with it. People are asking me questions about others with cancer, thyroid problems (I had mine ablated 12 years ago with radiation which is probably what started the cascade into cancer), and Epstein Barr. All I can say is: check out chrisbeatcancer.com, The Autoimmune Solution, The Thyroid Connection, and Radical Remission. Also, The Cancer Revolution. These 4 books and 1 website have completely revolutionized the way I see how medicine deals with illness and how people can take control and give themselves the gift of health, rather than destructive and short-sighted dealing with symptoms.
I pray this finds you and yours well. Night night.
It has be a really long time since I posted anything. It is just so difficult to sum this process up.
I feel like I am falling backward down a very long tube and God is asking me to trust him and relax. As I reach for anything to give me peace, besides trusting Him, I wobble. I might grab for a treatment option or a particular "expert" but God just keeps saying for me to stop and to relax, lay back and trust. In the meantime, I try to be faithful to what I need to be doing to take stress off my body and give it what it needs to heal itself, as I've detailed before.
About a month ago, I felt the concern and dread I had about the lymphoma and all the ominous details about it just lift from me. I felt really good physically and, although lymph nodes continue to grow and shrink in unpredictable ways, I just am not scared. We had a prayer night a month ago at my church and I remember feeling at tremendous peace and even seeing glimpses of gratitude that I have this diagnosis and that God has not healed me yet - because there are things for me to learn before He does.
Since then, however, I have been hit with very achy and swollen joints and painful muscle aches. I feel like I am walking through mud, especially after I exert myself. I'm afraid that the Epstien Barr Virus for which I got a tailored vaccine a couple weeks ago may have made things worse. On the other hand, these symptoms could mean my body is fighting. I blame myself whenever my diet isn't perfect. I will keep plugging and ... we will see.
In the meantime, I am reading about EBV and how to deal with it. People are asking me questions about others with cancer, thyroid problems (I had mine ablated 12 years ago with radiation which is probably what started the cascade into cancer), and Epstein Barr. All I can say is: check out chrisbeatcancer.com, The Autoimmune Solution, The Thyroid Connection, and Radical Remission. Also, The Cancer Revolution. These 4 books and 1 website have completely revolutionized the way I see how medicine deals with illness and how people can take control and give themselves the gift of health, rather than destructive and short-sighted dealing with symptoms.
I pray this finds you and yours well. Night night.
Thank you for sharing. I will read up on your suggestions. Seems like society has a lot to learn. Praying for your healing 🙏💜🙏
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