Week 2 of a very new life

I could literally journal every 1/2 hour and have a different set of feelings and thoughts to write about each entry. I am everywhere. There are times when fear creeps in and I feel rushed to decided to either go to City of Hope and start the CHOEP chemo regime and barrel toward a stem cell transplant in 4 - 5 months - or stick with the alternative, what they call the cutting edge, options.

Here's what that is looking like:

I had a pretty good 1st week of the very regimented regime but kind of fell apart over the weekend. I shouldn't say fell apart - just shifted more around than I think I should and forgot a couple things. Looks like sleeping in at all is just not a good idea and scheduling too much messes me all up.

My healing plan so far. I have an appointment tomorrow to try to decide if we need to add chemo that they do at the Cancer Center for Healing or at City of Hope right now or not:

Up at 5:30 focused on gratitude
Do Oil pulling and tongue scraping
Take my thyroid meds and drink a glass of water
Turn off the coffee pot so the coffee will cool for the fun later
Have a snack and take the Hoxsey tonic and 4 different herbs and supplements (9 capusules)
Exercise
Sauna and some quiet time to pray or coffee enema and pray (I've decided to alternate due to time)
shower and ready
Breakfast smoothy made by my awesome hubby stud and a bunch of supplements and my antidepressant I've been taking for a long time.
Leave for work on workdays by 8:45 to be there by 9:30.
Listen to uplifting music on the drive, after catching up on the news.
10:00 Pancreatic enzymes on an empty stomach
11:00 snack and Hoxsey tonic with the 3 herb capsules and 1- 500 mg sustained release Vitamin C
12:30 lunch - see diet below
Add H2 to my water
2:00 Pancreatic Enzymes on an empty stomach (5 tablets)
No animal proteins after 2:00
4:30 snack with Hoxsey tonic and herbs
Add H2 to my water
6 - 7 dinner with same 9 capsules as first thing in the morning
8:00 Pancreatic enzymes
Get ready for the next day
1 drop of "Drainage Remedy" in a class of water. Take a couple swigs and discard the rest.
Grounding activity outside
Bath or other sleep aid like tea
Snack with Hoxsey tonic and herbs
Make sure coffee is set up for next day
Pray with Drew
Sat night - special probiotic
Body brush
Night time meds: Progesterone and Cytomel. Take calcium, liquid lea, nutriferon, vita c, and primrose oil.
Hoxsey salve on nose or any other possible skin cancer spots
Check Zenadrine Essential Oil in the diffuser
In bed in time to have 8 solid hours sleep
Frankincense Essential Oil on my feet

I will decide on adding more chinese herbs for uterine fibroids and squamish cells this week (through testing)
Still looking for answers on adding cannabis (look at website given by dr)
Find out why I am not on Lymphoma herbs from Hoxsey and confirm this is correct tonic with no thyroid

Each day I also want to schedule time for Bible Study and time to read and look at videos that help me stay focused on what I am doing and why.

The Center for Cancer Healing M, W, F from about 1 - 5 for various treatments and IVs. That does not include doctors appointments, chiropractor...

I am taking quite a bit of time off work but don't see how else to do this. Anyone who knows me can read into this schedule. I can't run fast by the seat of my pants the way I have lived my life. And, if I allow myself to be busy, I don't really have the time or energy to make this happen. I am struggling with what that means and, to be honest, can I be this disciplined.

Oh ya - and we are on a ketogenic anti-cancer diet, combined with the Hoxsey Protocol of no vinegar, tomatoes, alcohol, processed flour or sugar, and pork. No animal protein after 2:00 because your body goes into a restoration period from about 10 - 2 pm (sounds like it is best if you are in the dark). If your body is still processing animal protein, I guess you don't get the full restoration effect. This is hard for us carnivores on a low carb, primarily protein, bitter vegetables, healthy fat diet. We are still trying to figure it out.

My Drew has taken on the challenge of figuring out what we can eat and is doing it with me. This act of selfless love is what is making it at all possible to consider going this route. I feel overwhelmed by it all and he has taken this part off my plate. How I thank God for him constantly. 30 years. Wow.

I am also drinking Alkaline water. Everyone has a different opinion on it. It doesn't hurt me and a dear friend has been bringing it to me who swears by it. And...another dear friend just gave me a machine they purchased when her husband was battling cancer. So, I'm doing it.

It just feels crazy. But maybe, just maybe, I will find answers that will help me get through this and actually come out healthier for it. And, with all the confusion, maybe our blazing this trail will help others decide what is best for themselves in the future. There is no doubt we will all be making cancer decisions for ourselves or our loved ones in this life. I pray my journey helps someone with theirs.