Update 4/7/17
My mom's life was transformed by her involvement in A.A. One thing she learned, and taught, was to H.A.L.T.
Never let yourself get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired. Reach out to someone. Take care of yourself.
Today I was too tired. We are considering selling our home and heard someone might come see it today - without it even being on the market. So, we have stayed up late two nights and up the next day for work. Packing, lifting, sorting. I am tired today. And that made me emotional and just plain down.
Up until today, I was so focused on research and just marching through whatever is going on that I didn't experience any sadness, except when I would think too much about some very special people in my life that I just don't want to have to deal with this.
I woke up shaky and preoccupied, hoping to hear from the doctors. My thoughts turned from relief, as I have felt since I was able to cancel the bone marrow biopsy and we all decided God had heard all our prayers and this must be a case of a false positive.
Today I questioned how healthy cells could possibly be mistaken for T Cell Lymphoma cells. I lost sight of the hope that it really could be God at work.
Mid morning, I called the oncologist's office. They hadn't received the new and reviewed pathology report. I asked the MA to please "keep me on the radar." She said to call back before they close.
I did get a call from the ENT who I was working with before the oncologist. He said he had never heard of this situation before and assured me we would get to the bottom of it.
I called the oncologist's office before they closed at 3 and --- nothing.
The oncologist surprisingly called much later just to tell me - no news. My mom would always say that no news is good news. Maybe I'll be able to 'feel' that after a good night's sleep. H.A.L.T. And...eyes back on Christ. He already knows the results of the tests and what is to come.
Never let yourself get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired. Reach out to someone. Take care of yourself.
Today I was too tired. We are considering selling our home and heard someone might come see it today - without it even being on the market. So, we have stayed up late two nights and up the next day for work. Packing, lifting, sorting. I am tired today. And that made me emotional and just plain down.
Up until today, I was so focused on research and just marching through whatever is going on that I didn't experience any sadness, except when I would think too much about some very special people in my life that I just don't want to have to deal with this.
I woke up shaky and preoccupied, hoping to hear from the doctors. My thoughts turned from relief, as I have felt since I was able to cancel the bone marrow biopsy and we all decided God had heard all our prayers and this must be a case of a false positive.
Today I questioned how healthy cells could possibly be mistaken for T Cell Lymphoma cells. I lost sight of the hope that it really could be God at work.
Mid morning, I called the oncologist's office. They hadn't received the new and reviewed pathology report. I asked the MA to please "keep me on the radar." She said to call back before they close.
I did get a call from the ENT who I was working with before the oncologist. He said he had never heard of this situation before and assured me we would get to the bottom of it.
I called the oncologist's office before they closed at 3 and --- nothing.
The oncologist surprisingly called much later just to tell me - no news. My mom would always say that no news is good news. Maybe I'll be able to 'feel' that after a good night's sleep. H.A.L.T. And...eyes back on Christ. He already knows the results of the tests and what is to come.
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